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Peaceful at last...

I have finallie told my Mom....
Hahax!!!!!!!!
And she wasnt angry after I have explained to her...
Hehex...

Now it's D-1 DAY!!!
Cant wait for TOMORROW!!! Which is D DAY!!!!! :D :D :D

I am so bored...and tired....
I noe my blog looks CRAZY at the moment...
But ime trying to experiment with things...
And believe it or not...Livejournal doesnt exactly have that many nice layouts and designs....
No flexibility.....

Maybe I shud try using a different blog....
Hmmm............."thinko" "thinko".... :)

Anyway....I guess thats it for this post...
Just a simple update on how my life is so far...hehex...


Buhbyes....
Lots of hugs and kisses! :)

Coming to an End....

I have officiallie.........resigned.....

I noe I havent gotten any other job yet...
But I somehow do not regret my decision...

I dunno y but maybe a lot of people - including my Mom whom I have YET to tell her - will think that this is the most STUPIDEST decision ever...
But I have been trying to reason with myself...
Been trying to find an answer to all this....
Whether I even feel a teeny weeny bit of regret for resigning...

But NO!
I do NOT regret my decision...
I somehow feel so alive right now!
So free!

Before I came to this decision of resigning...
I had a lot of doubts on whether I should just endure a couple of months more or not...
But then...like I told my friend Khuzzy...
I had a nap in the MRT while on the way to work...
And suddenly I just woke up straight in my seat...
Like seriously!
And that sudden thought came to my mind...

"I am going to end it on 1st March 2012"
That was the thought....
Before I even had this thought, I even prayed to God to give me guidance...
And He has answered my prayers...Amin! :)

So yeah....
I hope and pray to God that I manage to find and get ANOTHER job by end of March 2012....
Let's pray together! :)



LET'S KEEP THOSE HIGH SPIRITS UP!!! :D

It's still my fault then....

So just a while ago while eating dinner (breaking my fast)....
Everything came out to the open....

U asked me y ever since THAT person came back...
My face is all sour and I just LOVE to keep going out with frens....
And I said that becos ever since THAT person came back...
I seem to be the BLAME FOR EVERYTHING....
Even wen ime not wrong....
And the only way and with the only people I can confide in is my FRENS!

But still....
It is ALL my FAULT, huh?
In the end....
The whole BLAME is put onto MY shoulders!
It is NEVER gonna be OTHER people's fault....
Cos theyre ALWAYS right.....huh??!

How can I even pour out my feelings to u wen u dont even try to understand?!
U keep wanting to scold me for feeling this way....
This is USELESS!

And I didnt even finish my food....
WHATEVER....
Cos its FOREVER my fault!

Sometimes I just feel like beating myself.....
Maybe ime going into depression or something....
But sometimes I just wanna be alone for a couple of days for me to have some PEACE and QUIET!

This is NEVER gonna change....
Why??
Cos its ALL gonna be MY fault!

Trust??

I have always known that U have NEVER trusted me....
In fact, U trust THEM more...
Even after what HE did...U have ALWAYS trusted him...

But thats just not the case with me, huh?
Hearing u say that u dont trust me anymore...
I guess the truth finallie hit me....

U just NEVER know how much I cried in my room...
U just NEVER know....
Ive always known for a fact that U have always loved THEM more than me....

Fine....
Ile put my feet down on this....
And say that I will FOREVER remain single....
I WILL NOT have a social life....
Then U wont have any reason to say that I keep wanting to go out...
FINE!
But dont even dare to ask me in the future y ime still single....

Ime 20 and when its 8PM...u consider it as LATE AT NITE....
Ime 20 but cant even have the freedom to go out with frens after work WITHOUT the need to worry...
about HOW "LATE" it is.....
Ime sure deep inside ure THANKFUL cos I never had a boyfren....

Whatever....
This I noe for a fact that its NEVER gonna change...
SO ive lost all hope.....
Its forever gonna be my fault.....isnt it??
So fine!

Where do I stand??

I noe now....where I stand....here.....
Thank u very much for making me feel this way.....
I reallie appreciate it....
Thank u....




One more time......




Thank u.....

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